ridinginthetrunk asked: Just pick yourself up and soldier on, that's the best way to continue. Relapse sucks, but you can beat it.
I know but I feel extremely disappointed in myself right now; I knew I could’ve avoided pulling that piece of hair. I was aware of all the signs that I was about to pull but I did nothing about them. I feel very weak and sad right now :(
Thankyou though, your words are still comforting to hear! xxx
I love having my hair played with. Thats one of the worst things about trichotillomania, you don’t want people to play with your hair. You’re scared of the way someone will notice your hairs too thin, you have too many bald spots, your hair isn’t real. In primary school my best friend Jess would sit there brushing and stroking my hair for hours, it was one of the most soothing and wonderful feelings, so much so I sometimes wish I could just digress back to my youth just to feel such a thing again. So often I find myself playing with my boyfriends hair, running my fingers all over it and feeling how even and full it is. I can’t wait for the day someone plays with my hair; not my extensions, my real long thick hair.
Wednesday May 5 @ 01:18amI keep finding stray bits of hair that have fallen out of my extensions and I can’t help but keep turning them into knots. This knot making process is so soothing to me, and i can’t help but find myself actively seeking out bits of fallen hair to make them into a knot. I can’t help but know this is just the beginning to relapsing and pulling from my extensions again. I feel so sad that it has come to this again; I have had 53 pull free days on my extensions, a month of this not even comprehending the idea of pulling and yet now once again I am continually plagued by thoughts of pulling my hair out. I need to break this mindset.
Wednesday May 5 @ 12:55am
aerocrashed asked: good luck! i know it's going to be tough (done the same thing myself) but just relax and try to have fun :)
Thankyou! I actually whimped out in the end and wore my extensions to sleep :( Guess it’s just one step at a time & hopefully one day I’ll feel confident enough to show people my real hair! xxxx
Sunday May 5 @ 05:36pm
